Inner Monologue

Oh God I am so tired. I am so tired. I hate this. I swear I spend half of my life feeling like this.

Its not that bad. Come on its okay.

It is that bad. I hate this world. I hate everything. I want to die.

You don't want to die. You're just sleepy but it'll be okay. You'll be fine.

No, no I won't. I'm going to die. I feel like shit all the time. I'm sick of this.

You don't feel like shit all of the time.

Oh don't I?

K,You are crying at your desk right now but come on. Get some tissues. See the tissues they're purple

I don't even like purple anymore. I'm not royalty. I hate it here.

Stop crying. Come on get up and get something to eat.

No, because if I get up and get something to eat then I'll just feel fat because eating = being fat.

You know that's not true. You need food to live and it tastes nice and its a good thing

Fuck you.

Come on now

Fuck you. Fuck you and your stupid lets be positive about everything and tra la la you're the part of me that is always thinking things will be okay but what happens? they turn to shit.

Quit whining. They don't always turn to shit.

WHAT AM I DOING WITH MY LIFE RIGHT NOW? WHY AM I HERE SITTING AT THIS DESK RIGHT NOW? ARRRRRGH

Dammit woman. Chill the fuck out.

And I didn't like Inception or Inglorious Basterds or District 9. I can't even be entertained anymore.

Buffy.

What?

Buffy.

Why are you sayi-?

Buffy.

I don't even know what y-?

Buffy.

Yeah I suppose Buffy is still rather good. I like Buffy.

Yeah you do and other stuff too

Yeah.

And remember how you were all awesome and agents were all "I wanna sell your boook"

Er....

Sure you hadn't finished it but think about the people who HAVE finished and couldn't even get a measly card. You got TWO!

That's true...but that's cause I'm a good salesperson

Not really...

WTF? You're supposed to be cheering me up.

Right so...you feel better now?

I dunno

Buffy.

Yeah. I should watch Angel too someday...and the comic is coming out soon.

They made fun of Twilight, memba?

Heh they did. That made me laugh.

K so....we good here?

Um....yes. See you in another 5 minutes.